Welfare? No way, learn to feed yourself!

I just spent one of the MOST difficult weekends on the road that I have ever had. It was physically, mentally, and spiritually tough. I was texting or calling Cassi throughout the weekend telling her how much I wanted to be home immediately. This rarely, if ever, happens. I was out with friends from our home church. We played 4 services at 3 different places in 2 days, but with travel we were got back on the fourth day.

We had less than 9 total hours of sleep over the 2 days we played and those days were packed from when we rose to when we fell. Even though I was on the road with friends in a band called Jacob's Road, I felt like there were barriers around me. It felt very closed off. It forced me to have a heart that sought God for answers. I had to find out if God put these barriers there or if I did.

Peace started to settle in the last day of services and especially during the last service we did. I forgot my bible on this trip so I had to find other ways to connect with God. The only thing that kept popping in to my head was, "Create in me a clean heart oh God and renew a right spirit within me." When I got home I read that passage in Psalm 51. This passage is my prayer right now and is what I intended for this blog post to be about. I thought I would let you in on my realness and struggles instead.

Over the past month or so I have heard 4 different sources talk about feeding yourself spiritually. One that stayed with me was from this weekend's trip. The pastor said that it is not the churches or the pastors responsibility to feed you. The pastor and church should be concerned with teaching you how to eat. This would include teaching you how to read the bible, how to reach out in prayer, and how to reach out for wise council.

This weekend taught me (reminded me) how to eat. I did not have the option to be spoon fed. I had to rely on God. You have to learn how to feed yourself. I did and now it has made me even more hungry. The body can't do it for you forever. Luckily the table is set and there is abundance.

Peace